Poem: The Fine Line Between Love and Hate

[xXxCloud_StrifexXx]

This poem doesn't rhyme, fyi...and it's long...and has no rhythm whatsoever.

~~~"The Fine Line Between Love and Hate"~~~

I never thought I could ever feel like this again
I had long thought my whole being was frozen
Many have tried to get in, all of whom failed
But you...
You did it so easily
Walking in with your d*mnable smile, you bid everyone good morning
Even me
And even then, I dispised you
You, with your cheery attitude
Your kind heart
Your caring eyes
I hated those eyes...
The way they stared at me...
Watched me...

You were always helping others
Sticking your nose where it doesn't belong
And still, they thank you
Praise you
I would bristle in disgust as I watched
And my hatred for you grew
Did you know all this?
Of course you did
You always knew everything
And I hated that about you, too
But the more I hated you, the more I grew afraid of you
Of what you're making me feel

You wouldn't let me alone
You never gave up
I would push you away
Put you down
Curse you
But you still had that infuriating smile on your face
As I delved deeper into myself, my anger at you grew
You disgusted me with your helpful ways
You scared me with all your knowing
You angered me with your kindness
But still you stayed
I didn't understand...
Why wouldn't you leave?
Why couldn't you let me be?
Why did you always have to interfere?
I wanted you gone
You and your kind heart
You and your caring eyes
You and your cheerful attitude
You and your d*mn smile...

Then, one day, you weren't there
You were gone
Forever

I expected to be relieved
Maybe even happy
But no
Even in death, your smile haunted me
I felt remorse
I mourned your passing
My heart ached at the thought of you
Tears spilled from my eyes at the mention of your name
I found myself reaching for you
Searching for you in my dreams
I wanted you back

I hated how I felt
As if I wasn't getting enough air
It's all your fault
You made me feel
And I hated you for it
I hated you for melting my heart
I hated you for butting into my life
I hated you for always being around
I hated you for leaving the way you did
I hated you more making me cry over you
And most of all
I hated you for making me hate you
I hated you for making me love you
Making me love you
And then leaving me
Leaving me all alone
My heart hardened once again

I stare at your photo now
Before putting it away, locking it deep in my heart
Never to be looked upon again
Never to be a reminder of my feelings
And without a second glance
I walked away

I will always hate you

I will always love you